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Happy Halloween!!

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I miss Halloween... the first year I lived here I was still delusional, I put out lights and pumpkins, decorated, bought bags of candy... and waited...

Eleven Halloween's later I am still waiting, although I am more realistic now and no longer buy bags and bags of candy.  I bought a single bag.  I took it to work and gave it out to the adults.  It made me feel a bit better, but sadly none of them came in costume.  Unless those really are costumes?

I miss seeing the littles, and not so littles, all dressed up in their costumes.  With their bright smiling faces and their adorable little treat bags.  I miss it.  It seems like Halloween is fading away.  When my son and the twins were younger at least the neighborhood behind us was decorated and most folks trick or treated.  Now it seems, at least where I live, that very few kids dress up and trick or treat anymore.

I understand.  This crazy world is getting a bit more frightening every year.  Trunk or Treat's are growing.  Neighb…

What does the Man in the Moon see?

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It's still raining... I love the rain, particularly during the spring and fall.  It started just after we snapped a picture of a blurry sunrise yesterday.  It was trying so hard to break through and light the day, it lost that battle. 

The steady rain feels like it is washing away so much of the yuck of the world.  Oh I know it isn't, but it sure does a great job at giving that illusion.  I wish it could was it away, I wish that it could wash away all the terrifying mess that is happening in Washington and at the state government levels.  I wish that it could wash away the darkness that seems to be seeping into so many people.  I wish...

Oh well you know what they say about wishing. All the wishing in the world won't change a thing.

Last night, I was lucky enough to see "The Man in the Moon", it was recorded live at the Independence Day celebration that Glenn Beck put on this summer in Utah.  I had wanted to go see it live.  Having seen it, I now really regret n…

Taking some back roads...

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I have so many thoughts running through my head, I haven't been able to sort them out all day.  Which is why I haven't written.

Yesterday as Hubby and I were cruising the back roads here in Southern Illinois, I was soaking up true Americana.  The things that make me happy and proud to be an American.  The parts of this country that soothe my soul and make my heart sing.

Our first stop was lunch at the Farmers Inn, it was founded in 1896, Hubby's dad used to take him there when he was young.  It had closed for a couple of years, until a young couple decided that it was a community fixture and reopened it.  All I can say is that it was AMAZING!  Around here folks always say if you want good fried chicken go to Eckerts or Dandy Inn... and both of those are good... but... may I suggest heading out on 158, until you come to that lonely intersection with the old brick building.  You won't regret it!


After that fantastic lunch we headed back out until almost sundown.  I wimpe…

Time Marches On...

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Looking down at my computer, trying to stay awake as my Cardinals battle it out for a win in this World Series, I noticed the date.  In a few short hours my ex-husband will be 50! I don't know he feels about it... we are still "friends" but rarely do we ever talk, now that the kids are grown a weekly conversation is something he can have with them.

I am honestly wondering what it means to me?  I met him when I was just 13 and he was 15, 50 seemed so very old back then. Our parents weren't even 50. Gray hair, aches and worrying about retirement seemed a million years away.  Back then the biggest worries were acne, break ups and finals. 

We grew up together and in the process we grew apart.  Over 12 years ago all those bits and pieces that seemed like a life appeared to fall apart.  They didn't fall apart! They fell into the lives that they were meant to be in.  He fell in love and married the love of his life, he will be 50 tomorrow and I am pretty sure his young…

Homemade Love

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Busy weekend planned and I wake up with a stuffy head and headache?  What a cruel trick... Hopefully some allergy medicine will knock it out and it will get better, because the stuff planned has to happen regardless!

I picked up the coconut oil and olive oil last night for soaps, I cannot wait to smell the scent of the tea tree as it cures.  It is by far my favorite!  I will also be making a lavender and possibly a clean cotton.  I am not sure.  It's time to start stockpiling them again.  All of those won't happen today, I don't think I have enough molds.  But there is always tomorrow...

I am down to the last three hats that I have orders for and one is already over half way done.  Then I want to make myself one... it's getting cold outside!  And I sold the one that I wanted the most.  I almost didn't put it out, but I was so worried I would not have enough that I did.  I must have been right about it being pretty, because it was one of the first ones sold.

After …

Compassion is from the heart...

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Have you ever had a week that was so busy and full that it flew by?  This is sort of one of those weeks.  I cannot believe it is Friday.  My "plate" has been overwhelmingly full, and strangely most of it has already gotten done. 

I am thankful that tomorrow is almost here, I have things planned,  but it is simply stuff that fills my soul with peace and calms me.  You know, a quilt to quilt, soap to make, maybe some curtains to sew and hats to crochet.  I am almost done with my special orders after all. Three and a half left to go just in time for some seriously chilly weather.

This week has been a week that has been wrought with strong emotions, dealing with difficult situations (which evidently aren't finished yet - yep that 5:12 am call to the Lifeguard supervisor was not fun....), amazingly joyful times and incredibly shocking ones.  It has been a complete emotional roller coaster. 

I feel drawn to offer stronger support to all those that surround me.  So many have h…

Sometimes change is good...

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As Autumn starts rolling in there is some serious change in the air.  Leaves are falling, the chill is biting at finger tips and toes.  It truly is my favorite time of the year.  Most people think of winter as their "gotta survive it" time of year... for me that is summer.

The change in the air is very pervasive.  It isn't just confined to the weather.  I know so many people right now that are struggling with new realities.  Job changes, job losses, new jobs, looking for jobs, life changes... just so much. 

Change isn't always bad... although sometimes it seems it at the time.  I have seen the excitement in the eyes of a friend that is starting a new path, college and a huge career change.  You can feel her joy and excitement.  It's a huge life change for her and she is jumping into it with both feet.

Other people I know and love are finding themselves unexpectedly unemployed.  Those changes are harder to face.  They leave you with a mixed bag of feelings.  Part…

What is happening?

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Is it only me or do the weekends seem to fly by at the speed of light? Hubby and I usually have so much we want to accomplish on the weekend, things that we simply do not have time to even think about over the course of the week.  And it seems like squeezing all of that in, means very little down time. 

Yesterday we had to go and do our grocery shopping for the week.  We had planned on it for Saturday, but the day got away from us.  We blinked and it ran for the hills.  So yesterday was catch up day.  Hubby cleaned the kitchen and cooked, so I could work on all the orders I have for hats.  At some point we had to go shopping.  We stalled, put it off, got creative... everything we could think of... it finally came down to it, we simply had to go. 

With great reluctance we chose Walmart, uggghhh I hate that store! Unfortunately in our area it is the only store that carries the dog food my boys like, and since I had to go anyhow... It seemed everyone in the city had the same idea.  It w…

Friends, Fun and Fires...

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Someone turned the heat off.  Earlier in the week it was almost too warm to be classified as October, much less Autumn.  Yesterday... did not measure up to those incredibly warm days that are now rapidly forgotten.  As I grudgingly agreed that the heat needed turned on, at least to 65, my fingers freezing and toes slightly tinged blue.  I couldn't help but marvel at the way nature rapidly changes our world.

I personally love the cooler, ok - cold, weather.  A few of my joints disagree with me, but who is going to listen to those?  I mean seriously!  If I listened to aches and pains, I would have quit life back in 1997.

The rain of yesterday morning, gave way to a beautiful Autumn day.  The picnic was so much fun, if a little cold under the pavilion with the sun blocked and those silly breezes (yeah lets call them breezes).  I was just grateful for my wristers that I had brought - decided I need a pair in alpaca (light and super warm) as my hands were able to stay warm even if the…

Rainy, Sunny Autumn Days

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Today reads just like the setting for a dime story novel.  It was a cold and dreary day.  The perfect kind of day for a roaring fire and hot coffee...

It is a cold, wet and dreary day.  Fall feels like it arrived over night with the intention of digging in it's heels and staying this time.  It's the curl up with hot coffee and a homemade quilt kind of day.  Sadly that is not to be. 

I only have a bit more me time today before I need to get with it.  It's the company picnic today, and while I am not the joiner and didn't volunteer to help.  Hubby is a far nicer person than I am and he did.  I am okay being that background person, you know the supporting player.  Hubby prefers a more starring role.  I am okay with it, but I sure wasn't planning to go for very long this year. 

It was a great time last year, but we had our Ava.  A family event without any "family" except each other is kind of strange. We won't be there the whole time, which is good, I do…

For the love of B's

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Yesterday I didn't write, I simply couldn't bring myself to write two rants in a week.  How depressing!  I was struggling heavily with stuff at work, things that made me sad and hurt my heart and with all the crap going on in this once great country. Instead of writing I prayed.  Because sometimes that is all you need to set your world back on an even keel.

I can't change our country, I can change how I react to it.  There is nothing at this point and time that will change the fact that my medical insurance is rapidly becoming an unusable expense for me.  That I am now struggling to find all new doctors, accepting new patients, because of these wonderful new laws and the insurance companies and doctors reactions to it.

There is nothing I can do to change the fact that my dollars are becoming worthless or that my house is costing me more every year due to the FHA insurance that keeps going up to cover others that aren't taking care of business. 

I can't change the …

Counting Blessings!

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There is nothing like waking up and your old pup is in what I call puppy mode.  Watching him running around the yard in his bouncy way with his ears perked up, it's easy to forget that he is around 13 years old.  For his breed that is an advanced age. 

It only carried the wonderful feelings left over from last night.  I wanted to write last night, I even tried, but keeping my eyes open was not something I was being successful at.  And even though the words were dancing in my head they simply wouldn't tap themselves to the computer without help.

Our crazy country is seriously having issues.  I have reached the point that I feel they all think we are stupid and not capable of having a rational thought.  I was thinking about that this week, as if my rant didn't make that clear.  Then I started to really think...

I am blessed...

Hubby and I both work for a non-profit, so you can imagine how that translates to our personal budget.  But we have a home, it's not palatial, but…

Warning... This is a Rant!

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"This world keeps spinning faster to a new disaster"... Those words from a song are playing through my mind this morning.  I am worried about my country.  I am worried about the path we as a people are on, and I am more worried about the folks that simply don't want to pay attention.

I try very hard not to be political.  I don't sign up to campaign, I don't donate to politicians and I have a pretty firm belief in keeping an open mind.  I realize that not everyone shares my views, just as I don't share the same as the rest of the world.  That is what is so incredible about living in this country, we can all have our own ideas, beliefs, thoughts, etc and in practice we all work together to come up with a solution that we can all agree to live with.

I am doing a lot of research lately.  I don't trust the news media, they really lost me completely when the Two Million Bikers ride to DC in honor of all that lost their lives on September 11th garnered very lit…

Slowing down... for a minute...

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A steaming cup of Vanilla Red Rooibos tea, warm flannel pj's and hubby's soft snore as he drifts on the couch waiting for his favorite show to start.  Perfect end to the week and weekend.

Today was a slightly better day, all in all it wasn't a terrible weekend, and it was a good learning experience.  I am going to look into setting up a shop on the Square Market.  Still debating on the Etsy site.  I have met so many people that have a wide variety of experience with it that I am still thinking about it. We will see.

Once we wrapped up today, Hubby and my son helped me pack it all up and head home.  We hadn't been home long when Hubby took me for a nice long motorcycle ride.  The sun was setting as we headed home.  It was the perfect way to unwind.  The cool October breeze, the brilliant colors as the sun drifted below the horizon, the fields in various stages of being harvested, and the silence of the small mid-western towns that surround us. It is so hard to remembe…

A leap of faith...

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Note to self... Maybe check the city calendar to insure that when you live in the St. Louis area, you do not sign up for a craft show, the same weekend Octoberfest is in Soulard, Fall Fest in Downtown St. Louis, the Autism walk in Forest Park, the Cardinals in post season play, and the the Blues playing all in one day... Whew!  That makes a little craft show not the place to hang out when you add into the mix it is a beautiful day in the high seventies.
So maybe not the best weekend to decide to break a 25 plus year hiatus from craft shows.  I wouldn't say it was the greatest day, but I am also not going to say it was the worst.  I sold a few hats, hubby sold a few of his "Woods Belts"... I have a few orders to get done tonight for tomorrow, and I now have enough inventory to consider opening my Etsy shop.  Everyone was commenting on how few people showed up.  It was crazy!


All in all... it's been okay. I don't know why I had myself sick to my stomach.  I guess …

F.E.A.R... you know what it stands for...

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Whew... my fingers are killing me, in fact I am so tired I can barely see straight!  Yet I am so nervous and apprehensive.  I am at 74 beanies, I simply don't think I will reach my 100 goal.  I am trying.  I haven't given up yet, but I am close.  At some point my fingers and lack of sleep have to win.

So why am I nervous?  Maybe it is the eternal optimist in me... or the girl/boy scout roots of always needing to be prepared.  Do I seriously expect to sell out... probably not... but I am terrified of not holding up my end of the agreement.  Who knows, I might come home with the same 74 beanies I am leaving with.  Actually, I might have a few more, because I plan to continue working on them while I am there.

I never got my soap made.  I simply didn't have time or the energy... I have considered it for today, but I really am not thinking it is going to happen. 

I am so nervous, I know that I shouldn't be.  I also know that I am incredibly insecure about my skill set and a…

Nail by Nail...

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"Nail by nail and board by board, Daddy gave life to Momma's dream"... well maybe not a dream but definitely a want!  I know I said that I was going to be working on hats all day yesterday.  I know my goal was ten complete hats, I didn't quite get there.

Our front porch has had some serious issues for awhile now, but we work so much anymore that we haven't been home to get much accomplished during daylight hours.  We just kept pushing it off. Limited time for chores and unwinding, limited money to rebuild and neither of us being able to agree on our ultimate goal for the rebuild, led to complete immobility.  We knew it needed to be done, we were frozen in place.

That frozen attitude thawed rapidly the other day.  When one of the boards finally broke, luckily it was in the lowest level and just a slight give under the foot.  It was definitely a call to action. Over twenty years ago Hubby had placed AstroTurf from Busch stadium over the surface of the entire deck…

Vacation Monday...

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Hot coffee, french toast, and a slow start to the day. That is really a good way to start the week.  I am so thankful to hubby for taking the time to do that for me. 

I am completely focused on getting ready for craft show this weekend, and fairly positive that I am stressing myself out completely! On top of that... seems I am getting a cold.  I never get sick.  For someone with a messed up immune system, I am really healthy.  So doesn't it figure that the one cold a year that I seem to get would happen this week. I sure hope yesterday was simply a reaction to riding in the cold rain the day before.  I really don't want to spend my first long vacation all year sick.  I think that would simply make me incredibly depressed.

Over breakfast we were listening to the news.  I am not crazy or losing my mind!  Shocking I know.  I missed it, but Hubby didn't.  I really wasn't "allergic" to our country place.  I was evidently very sensitive to the Lead mine they reope…