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| So Mom... what do you think about the changes? |
The peaceful little cove, where we could hide from the world
is altered. And I am torn as whether it
is good or bad. It seems okay. The ones
up the hill from us are a family. They
bought the piece of land by us and the one across the street from them. There is a father, son and son-in-law, and
usually a five year old boy, but he isn’t here this weekend. Hubby met them
last night when we went for a drive to toss the trash and fill water jugs (we
still haven’t invested in water and sewer – it’s a big step and we want to be
sure it is something we truly want to do before we go there), I was so tired
from all the allergy medicines that I simply sat in the car and listened.
The ones below us, the ones building a cabin, we haven’t met
them yet. We’ve been told they are a
younger couple. I am thinking if you are
buying a piece of land down in our area you aren’t coming to party, but I guess
we will find out. It still seems very
quiet down here. The view is altered, it’s not as wild and rugged looking, but
it’s not bad. Actually looking at all
the changes has me thinking.
Do we keep our little piece of paradise, and make the effort
to come down here more? Or do we part
with it?
When we picked it, we envisioned our children loving coming
down here, hanging out with us, camping bonding, and quality together
time. As time has moved on, we find that
the oldest doesn’t want to drive this far (although it is much closer – 40 minutes
– to her new home); the boy that was raised camping and outside does not want anything
at all to do with the great outdoors.
And the twins, there is no internet, no phone service and they want
nothing at all to do with something like that.
So… it is simply ours.
I love being down here, I could hide for days. It forces me
to focus on the things important to me without all the noise and chaos of
everyday life at home. I am working on a
quilt, during past visits I have made tons of socks and sweaters. Things to fill my world and calm my mind, all
while listening to books on CD or talking to hubby and planning dreams. I could
move here.
I worry that hubby gets bored. He is so into technology that I can sense the pacing before it even happens. I tried to pick up a movie for him yesterday, that he could watch when he ran out of things to keep him busy, but we’d already seen it and it now needs taken back to the store. Fail.
He and the boys have just taken a drive, he was going up to
the bath house, and I am enjoying my coffee in complete silence – except for
the air conditioner running. I truly
could walk away from it all and stay here forever.
My favorite of our neighbors lives at the top of the hill on
our dead end road. Kim watches
diligently from her little spot. She and
Lucy, her beautiful rescue lab mix, are always on guard, we never have to worry
about vandals or anyone damaging our world. She
lives here year round in the most precious little house. It isn’t huge, but it’s enough. I love
it. She gave me the grand tour last
year. I want one just like it, actually
just like it but a fraction bigger, need room for hubby and the boys. I know where I want the house. It’s just a bit down the hill from where our
camper is now. Did I mention that I am a
bit of a recluse? I don’t want huge, I
don’t want sprawling. I do want
comfortable though.
The house I envision there is big enough that we aren’t
crowded, maybe a split level, I am not a huge fan of stairs. Open floor plan with a fireplace for the cool
months. Probably two or three bedrooms – because who knows someone might
finally want to stay here with us, and a couple of bathrooms, room for more than
just us, but not a ton of it. A wide wrap around deck, with rocking chairs on
it…
Kim is living my dream, not completely, because I don’t want
to be pushing sixty, living completely alone out here. Although I could live
alone out here, it’s just not what I want. She works from home, making
beautiful jewelry. I want to be able to
live peacefully, doing what makes me happy, supporting myself and having just
enough.
I don’t know if I like the changes here. I am not a fan of making new friends and
being nice. Considering what I do for a
living that is actually quite funny. But
I am slow to warm up. Slow to want to be
part of a group. I want to study the
dynamics and then make my choice. Hubby
is an immediate friend with everyone.
We have time to make those decisions. We have time to reevaluate
our choices. We own our land and camper
free and clear. Taxes are crazy cheap –
I spend more on a dinner out than a year of taxes. And Kim said once you put a house on it, it’s
only $250 or less a year. The annual
fees for the community are less than that.
And the electric out here is very reasonable. Hmmm…. So much to consider…. Do we plan our
dreams out here; do we ultimately put the house in town up for sale and
move? Is the commute worth it? So much
to think about…
Maybe I finally make friends out here. I could become more social…
Maybe….
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