|Prepping for syrup|
If you don't like where you are today, change something and make tomorrow look different - Dave RamseyGood advice Dave, but what are you really trying to tell me? I am being prayerful, I am being reflective, my eyes have been open and my heart has been strong and faithful. I am evidently also simply being blind.
I am fairly sure that learning to make a lotion bar from dandelions or trying a violet syrup is not what my life needs. I simply don't know what I am looking for, but I know I need it.
|Getting ready to dry for some lotion bars|
I like to know where I am headed. Good, bad or indifferent. For me this is a serious struggle. I am surrounded by people and groups that thrive in secrecy. Is this what is making life such a struggle for me? Is this what is causing this stagnant, dull feeling?
Is it F.E.A.R? That causes the nightmares? I have woken up with some really strange nightmares for weeks now. Maybe they aren't nightmares, maybe they are just some of the darn strangest dreams I can remember having.
Who knows... I sure don't. I hate uncertainty, and that is where I feel like I am, drifting in uncertainty. I wish there were an auto focus on life, like on my camera. There isn't.
Be the change you want to see in the world - GandhiWhat is that change? Hubby and I went out to look for the meteor shower this morning, looking up into that clear crisp sky I felt tiny and insignificant. The reality is, in this big universe I am. In my universe, I am searching just as hard for an answer as I was for the meteor shower this morning.
|One lonely star or planet, but not a single meteor to be seen...|