Although you would be hard pressed to convince me that it is just the beginning of August by the wonderful temperatures we've had for two days. After spending a few weeks in Hell's furnace, I will not only take this unexpected cool down, I will celebrate it! Temps in the sixty's and low seventy's. Oh yes! It is well established that I am not a hot weather person. I love the gardens, I despise the heat. I am not foolish enough to believe that summer has kissed us goodbye. It will be back twice as strong for many encores. I am sure of it.
Yesterday when I woke up, my watch buzzed. I figured it was just the daily updates, but nope. Evidently, my fitness watch needed to wish me "Happy Birthday Month". I can't lie, it made me laugh and set my day off to an amazing start. I don't celebrate birthday month, but it sure made me smile. I guess I should be a bit disturbed that my watch is wishing me happy birthday, it's humorous just the same. I mean I definitely still have a few days before I cross that 61 mark.
I've been dancing in the kind of funk lately. Slightly terrified that all the tick bites earlier in the season have caused a flare up from the Lyme that lives forever in my body or triggered that fibromyalsia that I refuse to acknowledge it came as part of the package deal with the Lyme. I'm willing whatever it is away. It's not terrible, maybe it's just a seasonal blah... I get those, don't we all. A point where we just opt out of most things and need rest? I'm sure it is a deep paranoia, the Lyme was a very dark season in my life, unexpected muscle and headaches and being extra tired are like an immediate red flag. The fear sets in quickly, very quickly.
Those darn ticks have definitely stopped our mountain/countryside hikes, they've seemed to not care how much tick spray you apply, they are impervious. Finding so many of those tiny blood suckers was enough to slow me down.
I will welcome the first freeze, the break in their life cycle. I can't wait to start daily hikes once again.
In the meantime, I have managed to semi-participate in life. The lack of energy and or desire to do much has been messing with my spirit. I look around at everything I either want or need to do, the list is growing. The energy has been lacking. It's okay, it's just a season, but it's definitely a slow moving one.
I finished Hubs' sweater. I am beyond in love with it. I tried it on, as he was at work and someone had to do it. I am fairly certain I will be knitting another one of those before the year is over. I didn't start it right away, I have the yarn, but I wanted something a bit more portable for my upcoming trip. Instead, I grabbed a bag I'd tucked away a few years ago... okay probably 8 or 9 years ago, I figure if it's still in the single digits it hasn't been abandoned. I had already decided whatever was living in that bag, patiently waiting for my attention to return, was going to be completed. I was happily surprised to find a beautiful yarn that I had long since decided was going to be used for a pair of socks. I am almost finished with the first one and am I am quickly realizing I will have more than enough yarn to make several pair if I decide to do so.
As usual my brain is always planning new projects as I work, so needless to say, I have already planned my next project. I found a beautiful cardigan pattern that combines knit and crochet. Hubs had asked me what I wanted for my birthday, it's coming up ya know, and I told him I wanted something useful. Well, he agreed that I should buy the yarn and pattern to make it. I've ordered a beautiful brick colored Peruvian wool. I can't wait to start it. I can't wait for it to arrive and I can show it to you!
I have several quilts I should be working on too. Like I said, I'm struggling with energy and motivation for much this summer. I guess it's a season of rest this year, and I am trying to lean into it. It's hard. But I feel there is always a reason for things when they occur.
This is going to be disjointed, sweet Hubs was watching a travel show, I mentioned that I wished they'd choose Crete when they did those shows. I lived there from 1976 - 1978, I clearly remember it, one of my favorite places in the world. But none of the PBS specials ever goes there to explore the wonders that I remember so clearly. He decided to search YouTube for Crete. For a few moments I got to experience today's Crete, so beautiful, a bit too modern and commercial for me. Yet the beauty remains. What a beautiful distraction.
I guess, I should stop writing.
I started a batch of yogurt before I started. The sky is getting lighter and we want to get a walk in with our pups this morning. I am determined to accomplish at least a few productive things today. My actual to do list (not the want to do list) is long, and my upcoming trip is going to get here way quicker than I realized. I have to prepare for Hubs and the pups to have a successful 8 days while I'm away. Yes they are very spoiled, all three. I take my role as the family caregiver very seriously.
Well... I guess I need to get back to life. Celebrate the gifts, even if it's just an unexpected streak of cool days.
much love,
b
