Over the course of the day, plans were solidified. Back up plans were created and forward motion happened. Yesterday, was a tough one, but I definitely think it was the match we both needed lit. I often read a phrase lately that I still struggle to take to heart. When people show you who they are, believe them. I think Hubs and I both refuse to take off the rose colored glasses and want to believe the best of everyone.
So when someone shows their true nature, it's hard. It's a slap. It shocks you for a moment and makes you step back and re-evaluate. Truth is, when you take off those glasses and you truly look, you see it shouldn't have surprised you. They showed you all along who and what they are, you just didn't want to see it.
Today is better. Hubs is taking a half day off, so it will be a longer weekend. Which is good as he had to be at work before the sun even considered rising. He is going to a goodbye party for one of his guys. I'm sure he will enjoy it. He's worked hard all week, the break will do him good. Physically and mentally.
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| Massachusetts Cross and Crown Block |
I finished up the first hint of the black and white quilt yesterday before the wheels fell off the bus so to speak. Once life gets crazy, it's hard to slip back into those soft spots and relax. I didn't try. I did things I was putting off. Hard thoughts make me want to do unpleasant things to balance it all out.
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| Somewhere I will pop an accent color but for now... |
So taxes are officially finished and so is our family budget for the year. Frankly, those are two tasks I despise. By the time those were done, Hubs was home and we had just enough time to head out to pick up our milk order.
Standing in the bitter cold, with kindred spirits, waiting on our order started to refocus things. It was amazing to see all of those around us carrying their coolers or baskets full of empty jars and egg cartons, ready to return them for refills. The kids waiting patiently with their parents, learning lessons that will hopefully stay with them forever. Health is important. Supporting local is important. Convenience isn't always a good solution.
Sometimes, the little things are the important things.
We ended up having a later dinner than planned, as the pick up window is only 6 - 630 pm. We have to leave by 530 pm to get there by 6 pm - there is always evening traffic driving out. It's only a 19 minute drive home, no traffic. We always take the pups, just in case things go wonky. Beau has to have his meds on time. Those are some of the little things that matter, that are worth changing our world around for.
I also realized in the chaos of the day, that I'd forgotten to make the Hubs' his chai concentrate. He loves a chai latte, so I make sure to always have a jar of concentrate in the fridge for him to have one each day. After last night, I might switch to making the batch in the evenings from now on, that scent while it is cooking is so warm, earthy, calming. The way it filled the air was heavenly.
It's been such a busy morning, I can't believe that is it only 7:40 am. I woke up at 245 am, wide awake again, I know there have to be more people in my tribe. Those of us that go to bed early, but are awake and busy long before the sun considers the day started. I've quit trying to force myself back to sleep, I only end up with a headache. Instead, I start the day strong, I'll rest later if I get tired.
I live on a the ridge of a common ground circle, when I am on my back deck in the morning I can see all the others with their lights on. I know I am not alone. I wonder if this is a new phenomenon, this middle of the night wakefulness, or if it is truly how things are supposed to be. Are our sleep patterns also programmed? Are they unnatural? I know both of my children are night owls, or they used to be. If given their own schedules they will gladly stay up and active until the wee hours. I was the same when I was MUCH younger.
I remember the first job I had that required me to be there by 430 am. I thought it was the work of the devil, normal people didn't wake up that early. It didn't take me long to fall in absolute love with that shift. I was finished with my work day long before others and still had hours of "play time" left to enjoy my day.
I'm still that person and thankfully I am married to my kindred spirit. Who else is going to wake up in the middle of the night and enjoy coffee with me? Or maybe it is simply part or aging? Not needing the amount of sleep we did as youngsters? I don't know... Open to suggestions.
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| Not a morning pup 😂 |
As the day is laying before me, chores mostly finished and Beau's last med time almost here... I think I am going to head to the studio and make up for lost time. Now that all the chaos and clutter from yesterday has cleared out of my mind.
Enjoy your Friday!
much love,
b
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