So much has happened in 2020. It's been full of chaos, uncertainty, fear, anger and so many other things. I have been learning, growing and expanding my own consciousness. I have been silent on social media, in life, I have had very little contact that was required for me to exist.
I am healing. I am not the same person I was when I started this year. Many things that were important... they no longer matter. That doesn't mean the people don't. Slowly I am adding people and things back into my bubble. I am just being very careful as to how I do that.
Yesterday started my 55th journey.
So much has changed. So many things are different. My lens has changed. Dramatically. One of the reason's I haven't written. I am still processing my thoughts, studies, the information I am weeding through. No one needed to be completely part of that process. My poor hubs has probably felt I am a bit off my rocker, but in true Hubs fashion has followed the path and journey with me.
I am filled with love and hope for our world, I am grateful for the amazing people that are traveling on my journey with me. I firmly believe that God brings you the people you need when you need them most. I am blessed by many. Grateful for their love, energy, thoughts and prayers.
2020... You are definitely a year to remember. I am not sure that I will continue this blog. It may have run its course and filled it's place in my life, I am still working through it. In fact I am considering a different platform... a new journey. I haven't decided. I am still working through this portion of who I am and the journey that I wish to continue. To me 55 is a bigger milestone than 50 was. It's a turning point in my head.
This morning as I prepared to return to work, I found myself choosing to wear colors that are completely not me. My daughter gave me a beautiful dress that I would have never bought myself. I am loving the light and airiness of it. The colors and style are liberating. I'm definitely not wearing my signature black. It was a choice. I like it.
I needed these 5 days of nothingness. I feel refreshed and ready for this moment. Not excited about the a/c situation awaiting me, but...
Thank you all for being a part of my journey. Thank you for filling those holes in my life when I have needed it. And thank you for allowing me to be your bridge when you weren't able to do it yourself.
I am not promising that I will be back. I am still deep in prayer and meditation about where my journey is going. But I will completely keep you in my heart forever, regardless where this journey takes me...
You need to continue this BLOG. It is a ray of light for so many of us.
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