Tuesday, June 7, 2022

calming the angst...

Yesterday was a busy one.  After I got over the shock of my big spider friend, I can honestly say I did not go down to the lower patio to see if he'd returned.  That was the stuff nightmares are made of. Thankfully, I didn't have any.  Still not a fan of big crawly things.

I spent my day working on my canning skills.  It is such a rewarding experience. I have to plan the stuff I want to finish up before we go camping, I have to make our crackers that we enjoy with our soups before we leave.  It is almost a ritual for us that those go camping. 

But I also spent the day enjoying some friends , my sister and chatting with the girls.  My one friend called to let me know she'd finished smoking the meat I'd sent home to her.  She is new to it, but is making some incredible things!  I wish they lived next door! I can hardly wait to see how awesome she is doing in just 6 months, because I find it hard to believe she could get better.  I just took the smoked onions she sent me out of the dehydrator, they are going to become onion powder.  The smell is heavenly!  The last batch is almost gone it was so amazing. It was awesome to chat about things and life for a few moments.  I enjoy quality time with the people in my tribe. 

I was busy planning with the girls and laughing with my daughter. She is not someone you want to push too far, because that girl will take it for a hot moment, but that is all she's going to take it.  Once you've gone too far, heaven help you.  She's definitely been pushed too far and her reaction is quite powerful.  It's enjoyable to witness karma in action.  Whew!

My sister called on her way home from work, we were laughing about her grandson's.  The youngest is finally out of the hospital and is thriving, he's sitting up in in little seats and playing with all the toys.  If you didn't know that he'd had such a challenging start to life, you would never realize it.  Her grandson's are all little characters in their own right, each one of the 5 has a warmth and uniqueness about them. All of them will crack you up.  I am so happy for them that things are going so well. 

The final friend came for dinner.  His wife is out of town, so she couldn't join us.  We both adore his friendship, we are blessed that he is part of our tribe.  During the course of dinner he asked if I would consider doing some quilting for another friend of his.  A quick phone call later and I picked up two commissioned quilting projects for next week.  It's amazing the way things work out. Invited him to visit for friendship and fellowship and got a paid job out of it all.  

puppy butts... getting ready to snuggle up for bed

My days seem to be getting longer, some of that is that I truly tend to sleep following the daylight hours, but they also feel richer.  

We are enjoying being surrounded by family and friends that bring a depth to our lives.  Laughter and meaningful conversations are what life needs to include.  For awhile it felt like our life was lacking in those things as we checked off boxes and did the things. The depth was lacking.

Today is one of those days where I am feeling a bit anxious.  There is a lot going on in the world and I try very hard to navigate it by flowing along.  Floating on the surface, living my life, but being very aware of what is swirling under the surface.  

I don't want to feel anxious, because I know without a shadow of a doubt that all things are happening as they are meant to and the end result will be as it is meant to be. So instead of sticking my toe into the undercurrent, I am going to keep myself very, very busy.  I have quite a bit to accomplish before we leave and only 3 days to do it in.  This upcoming trip was rather hastily planned. 

How do you deal with anxiety? Do you delve deeper into it?  Or do you acknowledge it is there and move above it?  I sometimes feel that I am a bit of a rose colored glasses kind of person, but hey life is meant for living.  I can't find the owners manual. 

Time to get busy.  It's going to be a busy, action filled day.  They are the best, the are the ones that create amazing sleep at night when you put your head on the pillow, exhausted but accomplished. 

Take the time to develop your tribe, spend quality moments with friends and family, find what brings you passion and joy and dig in!

love and peace...

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