I kept hearing it over and over again. Like I was being led to think about it. Transition. Transition.
I continued working my way through the task, my mind started thinking it through. I don't know if we realize how much of an absolute impact it has on everything. We live our lives in a state of transition. Moving from one thing to the next, almost like an assembly line.
Although I am fairly certain it was the bigger transitions that are going on all around me that led my mind down the path it seemed determined to follow.
I woke up to the news that the Pope had passed away while I slept. I'm not Catholic, so this news doesn't have much weight on my day to day life. I hope he receives the reward he has earned. As I am not of that faith, it is vague to me the impact it has. Yet, it somehow seems like a large transition in a world that is already spinning out of control.
The entire world is going through a period of massive transition. Good or bad remains to be seen. The immediate pulse from it all is chaotic and stressful. But isn't all change? This just happens to be on a global scale.
On the global stage it seems there was an incredible wave of transitions this weekend. Lots of deaths of leaders or top people in many countries and companies. The same could be said with some major resignations. Good or bad? Again it remains to be seen.
When I move my thoughts to a smaller more intimate space full of family, friends, and acquaintances the level of transitions is just as powerful, even if the circle the ripples impact is smaller. There have been births, life altering illnesses, losses of careers, beginnings of new ones, relationships ending, relationships starting. People are moving and starting different stages of their lives, others are contemplating it. Young adults are stepping out on their own, while some are returning to the safety of their parents nests.
All transitions seem to come with some degree of chaos, uncertainty, a bit of loss, a bit of hopefulness. Sometimes those transitions are traumatic and sudden. Sometimes they happen as smoothly as walking into the next room and starting another "thing".
The truth seems that all of them have the potential to be good or tragic. I can't help but feel our reaction to it is what forms the result.
When my career ended, almost four years ago. That was a major transition. I was full of fear and doubt for years leading up to it. Ultimately, it has led to such an amazing shift our lives. Hubs and I are happier than ever, we have balance, peace and calm in our world. So much that was missing, returned. It actually returned ten fold. At the time, I had doubts, fear, anger and so much mistrust. This side of the coin, I have absolutely nothing but pure gratitude. I don't dwell in regrets, there is no ill will. I guess there could have been.
I felt the same way when my first marriage ended abruptly. In fact looking back at my life's journey, there were many transitions that appeared to be horrible, life altering changes that I absolutely didn't or couldn't face or make on my own. And then life did as it always does and made the u-turn for me. I choose to believe that God redirected my path each time. That is what my heart tells me. He turned me away from self-destructive paths and put my feet on the one I needed to follow.
Each time, the reward ended up being far greater than what was left behind. And it wasn't that the path left behind was devastating, horrible, life threatening or any of those things. It was simply not my path. I hold nothing but love and gratitude for the lessons learned on those paths. For the people that were part of those journeys.
I know that not everyone believes in God and that is okay. Maybe you believe in the universe or a divine power (who knows maybe God is just the name we humans have assigned to that power), goodness knows I have no idea. It is just how I choose to think. But something is definitely driving all of these transitions, something is always trying to correct our path., to give us the lessons we need to learn. At least that is my belief.
I think the problems usually arise when we as mere mortal humans decide we know everything. When our free will gets in the way of the flow we are part of. When other humans decide to inflict their will on us, to push us a direction we are not meant to go.
I don't know. I'm not a philosopher, I have no background in theology (nor any desire to), I am merely a human trying to navigate this experience called life. Sometimes it feels huge and unruly, sometimes calm and serene. Most of the time it just feels like a bumpy dirt road. The kind that kicks up dust and makes a minor mess in the process.
The storms that blew threw last night were violent. The rain coming down was heavy and harsh. Pretty sure a lot of my seeds were washed away. Those that weren't will be stronger for the lesson of surviving the storm. They also felt affirming, like they were trying to wash away some of the ugly that is going on.
Who knows. I sure don't. All I know is by typing this out, the word has quit echoing in my head. Maybe there is a bread crumb or two in this ramble that someone needed. Maybe I needed it?
Since it's silenced and I feel a deep calm. I guess it's time to get busy. Dry my hair and dig into the things that bring me joy and peace....
love and prayers... b
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