waiting...

This world feels like it is spinning out of control at an unprecedented rate. So many loved ones are going through so much.  The helpless feeling is almost overwhelming at times.  All I can do is say prayers and keep busy.  

If I stop the busy factor, the worry and stress creeps in.  None of it is within my sphere of influence, they are just parts of my heart, parts of my life.  I am finding myself slipping deeper into my quiet space.  A spot where I can function without losing grip myself. 

I have to say I'm beyond over people being ugly to others.  I'm tried of this weird entitled world that we somehow slipped into.  I'm not sure I really know how to function in such a place. 

Right now I am waiting on the freeze dryer to hit it's sweet spot and then I am getting back to being super busy on this rainy day. Hard to believe it was so beautiful yesterday at sunrise.

Do you have things you do when life is too big?  I find myself pulling inward.  I get quiet, I get lost in to do lists.  Things that are distracting and productive. 

I can't tackle the massive wood pile in the rain.  But that isn't stopping finding lots of things to tackle inside.  The rain is soft and gentle, while also being the kind that soaks the earth.  You can almost see the leaves unfurling in real time.  Each moment I look out it is a bit greener, soon I won't even be able to glimpse my girls house down the hill.  

I am struggling to determine what "busy" work I want to tackle today.   I have a t-shirt order that needs finished.  I also need to get that darn soap made, because we 100% are not going to go back to using the store bought chemical bars.  I'm still in the midst of working on Hubs' quilt and I just remembered that he committed me to putting together an auction basket for a veteran's fundraiser. 

I have regular daily chores to complete, ironing, dishes, mopping, ya know the things... So it isn't like I don't have things to do. It's simply a matter of pushing aside things and focusing. 

I am pup sitting for the lady down the street.  Her baby is sweet as can be, I'm getting ready to walk down and make sure all these storms are not causing her too much anxiety as my babies have decided to
lay down and rest finally.  Thunder storms are stressful for pups. 

Well sweet spot achieved (now we wait for a few hours), breakfast made for Hubs and pups, dishes finished... I guess I'd better get focused on the rest of that list, because watching for my grass seed to grow magically overnight, is probably a waste of time. 

Enjoy your day, I need to keep busy...

love and prayers... b