percentages...

I'm guessing the universe is trying to slow me down for some reason. Only 5 - 10 % of folks that get bells palsy, ever get it again.  Last Thursday, I was gifted round two.  For Christmas I was given the left side of my face and April showers might have brought May flowers - nope the deer keep eating them, but it also brought me the gift of a paralyzed right side of my face.  Yup feeling that face plant emoji about now.  

Even my doc was a bit surprised, said he'd never encountered someone getting it on both sides within 4 months.  So tons of blood work and tests later and all I conclusively know is that I am a rather rare individual and they have no idea what's caused it. Lovely! Thankfully, I know approximately how long it will last and what to expect.  I guess that is something to be thankful for.  But seriously, a girl needs hot coffee and drinking that with half of your face not cooperating, well, it's definitely risky business. 

So now, I am bouncing in and out of life, not really doing much.  Trying not to sleep my life away due to the two medications they are trying this round and honestly feeling a little fussy. If I talk to much or too loudly, I start sounding like I've been drinking for days.  I can't be anywhere loud because that is just an insane amount of pain, as it causes an incredible sensitivity to different tones. Ugghhhhh.... 

I don't do still well, I don't do rest well.  I am not okay.  Okay, I'm done whining.  And I am actually laughing at myself a lot more than it sounds.  

So remember I was talking about the things in our DNA and how do we remember things we've never personally experienced?  Ironically, while killing 2 hours waiting to be seen by the doctor I was scrolling through my emails, and I got an update on my Ancestry traits.  Usually I ignore them, honestly I have found everything I was interested in finding and don't tend to pay much attention any longer.  But I was bored, so why not.  I almost fell out laughing.  Evidently, according to their studies and information... I have only got a 7% chance of being someone that will do artistic things.  

guess I didn't pay attention

It completely cracked me up.  Because I come from a long line of very creative people and my daughter and grands are very artistic also.  The irony was completely not lost on me.  Especially as I had just finished questioning DNA's role in things. 

I don't put much faith in their traits feature, mainly because almost everyone they have said applies to me does not.  So I guess I like low percentages. It also means it's just another example of how I have little faith in things I read.  I go by experiences and gut instinct mostly.  

So while I am "lounging" gahhhh I hate that word.  I am facilitating puppy playtime.  The pup's new friend has been coming over during the day while her mommy is at work.  She gets to not be lonely and they get to have a greater opportunity to socialize.  Win/win.  At first it was a bit hairy.  Piper is a good bit older than they are and has been an only for about a year or so.  Now... we nap together, play together and spend time outside together.  It's pretty funny to watch.  It's getting so comfortable, that Beau even went for his afternoon nap without the need to know what was going on.  

It's good for all of them and it gives me a chance to slow down and laugh. Watching Piper blend right in with Beau and Belle is fun, and it's crazy how much she looks like part of the same litter.  Heck she's not even from the same state. Guess it's a small world all around. 

As I can almost blink again, it's not so painful to look at a computer screen, so I am able to at least spend time writing, hopefully tomorrow I will be able to tackle more of the stuff that is lingering.  It's not really an over all pain, just the eye and ear, but it is definitely not uncomfortable.  So I have been being a bit of a wimp.  I'm not even 60 yet, these strange maladies need to slow their roll.  I'm getting a bit annoyed with the surprises. 

Guess it's a good time to plan a few camping trips and get signed up for our sites.  Hubs and I are planning to hit a few of the local state parks this year, spend more time outside, breathing fresh air, walking the pups and relaxing.  Last year kind of got hijacked, so we are working on a plot twist for this year. 

For now, I will get back to wandering my house aimlessly, wanting to do something, annoyed to be inconvenienced and trying to respect the lesson that is being taught. Or maybe just to figure out what it is. 

love and peace, b