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in a minute...

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I'm sitting out back, there is a gentle spring breeze and the sun is slowly setting. I'm listening to a mix of sounds.  The birds are still singing, they haven't decided it's time for a nap.  I can hear the deer and squirrels romping through the dead leaves.  Although the chatter is fading. Mostly I hear lawn mowers, string trimmers and blowers.  Seems everyone is taking advantage of this beautiful evening to tidy up their yard for Easter. It's supposed to rain tomorrow.  Hard to believe by the beauty that is surrounding us.

 It's been a hard day.  A roller coaster kind of day.

It started off beautifully, bright and crisp as an early spring morning should be.  Hubs and I had a final morning of zoo sitting, so we walked the boys and took off in the early morning light.  He'd agreed to walk with me.  I am getting fanatical about those 10K steps.   I didn't have time to be crazy this morning, had to be in to work early.  And as I was the only one with a k…

little blessings...

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The sunshine is pouring in the back windows.  My house smells heavenly.  I am simply relaxing on my sofa for a few moments while my polish dries, the nut bars cool and the Hubs drifts in and out of a nap.

I have to head to work shortly.  I volunteered to take the first holiday weekend, as it was my fault I didn't get the list out quicker for the team to choose from.  Sure didn't expect Easter to sneak in quite so quickly this year.

I have so much to accomplish, so it will be okay.  And we are closed on Sunday, so I will have a day of rest and celebration.

This morning as the sun was thinking about rising, I took advantage of the hours I had before work, and got most of my 10K steps in already.  It was a bit brisk, 36 degrees, so much so that Hubs opted out of going with me.  He isn't a fan of being cold.  I decided to walk around our complete subdivision, yep took on the hills.  I am not sure my knee is overly thrilled, but I did it!  And I am feeling pretty darn proud of…

loving ordinary...

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After a busy morning, walking dogs, feeding my girls critters, a short motorcycle ride with the Hubs in the early rising sun, smoothie making and ironing, I thought I would take a walk to get my steps/miles in.  As hubby headed off to inspect a building, I headed off to Sugar Creek Park.

I figured I'd be early enough to miss all the mom's and kiddos and have a pretty peaceful walk.  I was partly right.

For the most part it was me and only me. During the first two miles, I was cherishing the birds, squirrels, the soft breeze.  I was hoping to be able to lose myself in thought.  I am working through some things that are nagging at me and I really needed the silence.

That's about the time it dawned on me, that while it is a precious park, with a great walking path (lots of ups, downs, hilly and flat, even a small section that isn't paved).  Unfortunately, as I discovered today, it also sounds like a drag strip.  Getting lost in thought is something that is very hard to …

thinking through the ashes...

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If I thought the moon rise was spectacular, it had nothing on the moon set this morning!  I need to download the camera, I am hoping to have caught at least one shot of that breathtaking view!  Hubs and I walked all over the neighborhood with the boys looking for the best angle.  To the point that I was standing in the turn lane of Big Bend praying that my clothing choice (all black) didn't lead to me being road kill at 5 am.

Circled by high clouds, it radiated and glowed! It was so inspiring.

And as I sit here sipping on my morning smoothie, I am watching a sunrise that fills me with hope and joy.  I need it.

I woke up this morning to the sad news out of Brussels.  My heart is breaking for the people there.  It is one of my favorite cities!  I have spent many hours and days roaming the streets and exploring this exceptional city.  The old and new combine in a such a way that both feel as though they belong.  The people are kind, warm, loving, welcoming (unless you are driving - th…

moon rise...

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Moon rise tonight was so beautiful. Bright against the brighter sky.  It sparkled in the setting sun.  Rising higher as the sky dimmed.  Hubs and I walked down to my daughter's.  Did a clucker and meow count.  All the fish were accounted for, the snake and lizard appear to be well.

It was so beautiful this evening.  I was planning to walk, even if Hubs didn't.  I really am on a mission. I'd walked down this morning while he was showering. Each trip up the hill is getting easier.  I am trying to focus on walking 10,000 steps each day.  I've been trying for a couple of weeks.  First, the knee was giving me fits.  Then the right foot was hurting so much the idea of squeezing an extra walk in wasn't going to happen. New shoes that support my foot better seem to be making a difference.  The last three days I have exceeded my goal.  It feels good.  I feel stronger.

Like I am finally breaking out of my shell.  I feel like I am taking control of my life again.  Less pain.…

welcome spring?

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Salad is made for lunches tomorrow, dishes are done, lemon water is set out so that it's ready for tomorrow.
Hubs is upstairs softly snoring, his exhaustion factor is pretty high tonight.  Gator went up the stairs before Hubs did. As usual it's me and Neeko.


I don't think Neeko likes to leave mommy downstairs, no matter how tired he gets.  He's lying on the sofa beside me snoring away.  Silly guy.  He is ever watching over us.  Me in particular.  Last night I was having a particularly bad dream.  And evidently I was talking in my dreams.  Actually I was praying, as I was in a room with a particularly ugly darkness.  It must have left my dream and I awoke to the big guy laying full against me, nuzzling my cheek to wake me.  He would have made an awesome therapy dog.  He's just a big, gentle old goof.  Sometimes he is the smartest dog I've ever seen, and others... well... let's just say he'd be in danger on his own.


This first day of spring has sure bee…

gotta go back...

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I found this song shortly before Joey died.  It's so beautiful and completely explains how I feel. I'd really love to go back to a time that seems so long ago.  A time when Hubs and I spent more time on us and less time on everything else. I feel so much like I am losing things that are important to me.  And I simply don't know how to turn back that clock.  We do the stupid time thing twice a year, but it never seems to make things more like they should be. 
I decided to spend the day doing chores.  I got my hair cut, went shopping for shoes (thought I found a pair - nope - gonna have to try that again tomorrow), did all of our grocery shopping for the week, and planned an awesome dinner for Hubs.  I also got the yard mowed and after trying three different hardware stores found the line for the trimmer, so I was able to edge the yard.  Hubs was going to do it tomorrow. I was hoping by doing all of that, Hubs and I could have a peaceful day doing things that make us happy.…

a cluck, cluck here...

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I am not a farm girl, I swear it!  But one sure would think so.  I live firmly in the burbs, in the midst of shopping mecca's, strip malls, subdivisions of houses, condo's and apartments.  My yard is a postage stamp compared to my old house.

And yet... before 6:30 am today, I have walked my boys, fed the turtle, checked on a snake (yep, he's firmly under the water bowl that needs to stay full, so I will have to do that again in a bit... have I mentioned I HATE snakes?), made sure the water dragon had clean water and his crickets had fresh feeding cubes (? I am now feeding crickets?), checked all the aquariums, checked on kitties, and took care of chickens.
I am wondering if I have somehow slipped off into a very strange place. My girl is on an adventure so I am watching her zoo.  She lives in the same area I do, so nope, she is also not on a farm.  But she definitely has an eclectic taste in pets.

The kitties brought in a field mouse and killed it, leaving it lying in th…

it's blowing in...

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Was an early start today, long before the sun had considered waking up I had already helped Hubs walk the boys, made a smoothie, done a load of laundry and given Hubs a haircut.  He was seriously needing it! We were in a hurry to find out new polling place.  It's voting day after all. 
Hubs and I found it.  We made our mark.  I hope enough people care to do the same.  Right, wrong or indifferent, I have very little patience for folks that don't vote.  It is a right that has been earned for each of us with much blood shed and many battle scars.  And not only the kind earned on the battle field.  So many have sacrificed so much for us to have the right to make that little mark or push that little button.  
So many won't make the effort, feeling their vote doesn't make a difference.  I saw a meme the other day that completely demonstrated the reality of that mistake.  It showed the Washington Mall, surrounded by all of our monuments to the people that gave so much to shap…

almost...

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I almost did...

Yesterday walking the boys in the late afternoon, I saw the dandelions.

I almost picked them.  I almost did.

For years Hubs and I have been picking them carefully from non-treated fields.  They were a favorite treat of our little lizard Yuri.

At the grocery earlier in the day I noticed the kale was particularly crispy and deep green.  As I reach to pick up a batch Hubs halted my hand.  Reminding me that Yuri was gone.  I was buying it for us, but it definitely crossed my mind that he would love it.

There are so many times lately that I feel like I live in "almost land".

Looking at the delicate blades of spring grass.  I almost reached out and ran my fingers through it.  It was too delicate to be touched, so I pulled back.  Longing to feel it's soft, tender newness.


The buds are popping everywhere. I feel an overwhelming need to wander for hours in the beauty!


Instead... I find myself eating a late slightly well done dinner at my sitting desk, it was pr…

the dawn of spring...

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The star magnolia and cherry blossom's are starting to pop open, there are daffodils, crocus and jonquils popping up in random gardens. Our Rose of Sharon is starting to put forth buds and so is the lilac.  It's that time in early spring when everything is starting to consider budding out.  In a few weeks it will be a riot of color and life returning.  A welcome respite from the dreary, dank, bland winter.  
I love winter.  Don't get me wrong.  There is nothing that makes my heart sing like a deep, bright, white blanket of snow.  The kind that instills a deep silence, that makes everything have a heavenly glow. Unfortunately... we simply didn't get much of that.  The trees only bowed briefly, the ground soft and fluffy. The world frozen for a moment in time.  Instead... we got a lot of cold, blustery winds and a ton of dreary, lifeless browns.  Persephone was truly resting in Hades. The only brightness or beauty were the few stolen days with a beautiful blue sky and su…

Lessons from Gator...

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Early this morning, long before I'm normally awake, I simply ran out of sleep.  Usually I drift back off, usually it's simply a momentary rustling around in the blanket cocoon that I have somehow created in my sleep.  The warmth temporarily stealing my sleep with I search for the coolness of the air in the room.

Today, that didn't happen.  Today I was wide awake.  A million things running through my mind, some work, some personal, some hopes, some aspirations, some crazy thoughts.  Didn't matter, it completely robbed my sleep. And 3:30 am is rarely a time that I actually see, much less register alertness on any scale.

Tonight, well I tonight when I start driving home at around 9:00 pm, I am fairly certain I will be seriously regretting that slip in my routine.

My mind was flipping through things so fast that it felt like someone was spinning one of those old fashioned Rolodex, like we used to do when we were younger and one presented itself to our inquiring fingers.